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Clownery

🀑Hello. I am a clown.🀑

If you were not already aware by now, I am a clown. Though I do not completely follow all of The 8 Clown Commandments, I still consider, preform, and act like a clown. (For the most part.) My favorite clown activity is the makeup and outfit itself, which I indulge in the most. It is very fun to make a whole new clown look! Despite the reactions of some (which aren’t always positive), being a clown is 1 of my favorite things. I even have 15 porcelain clown dolls, which I consider to be my children. I also have a clown painting, and a clown figurine.Β  If you ever have anything clown esq that you no longer want, know that I would certainly enjoy them.

Here is some of my looks that I did all by myself! (He/they pronouns please.)

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Of course, these are nowhere near perfect, since I have only been doing clown/jester makeup for a short time (a few months). Doing these looks give me so much joy, to be honest. I love being a clown! Even 1 of my favorite songs is the Circus Theme! I may be rather expressionless, but I love making people laugh. I love having fun, and this is true fun for me. Even if clowns, jesters, and mimes are scary to you, I hope you can some day enjoy them! They are an underappreciated class of design, costume and fun activity. I definitely hope to have more clown fun in the future, with my best buds being supportive. I hope you can be supportive, too.β™₯🀑

Wow!

Finally back from summer.

My summer was rather short, or at least it felt like it. It was alright, there wasn’t many notable things going on . I did have fun at my uncle’s, and I also clowned around with clown makeup/items. I even got some new clothes for the school year! To me, it’s not unimportant, but it was not notable. I definitely have some plans for the school year, which I am excited to work on!

I intend to focus this year on academic work, and finding other schools I might want to go to. It would be cool to challenge my artistic skill with projects that go outside my comfort zone, and to also focus on learning more practical/”book smart” skills like math, science, etc. Setting these goals will most likely help me in the long run (especially the math 1 since I suck at it).

Hopefully this school year as well, I will get a full fleshed out mental examination, since I am not the best at focusing and I might need some help figuring out if I have anything mentally that needs more attention than others. (–Aside from the anxiety/depression that I am already aware of.) I have higher expectations of this year than I have had in the past,. Maybe things will go as planned…..Maybe.

Also note! I have recently started Testosterone! I have only gotten 2 shots so far, but on September 16th I will get my 3rd shot. Rather exciting, to me at least. My voice has been breaking a bit, because of this. That is all! Thank you for tuning in, goodbye!

I’m a crackhead

Hello all.

Today I did Japanese. We were doing traditional dance, and it was super fun and kinda easy. I got to wear a yukata, and even have my own fan! I’m getting better at writing my name in Japanese, super exciting.

I think I memorized the traditional dance, so maybe I can dance to it more often. Tfw they hit you with that yoi yoi in the song.

That’s all, sorry it was short. Bye!

Updates/my day

Hello all.

Today Japanese was happening! We were making emojis like how emojis in kanji are made from the words! My favorite 1 I made was “ghost”.

Today I also played some pizza simulator in Roblox. I was a manger and I helped mediate some trouble the workers were having with a coworker. Hopefully solved their problem! I think I’m a good manager, I want to be kind to my employees!

I also just watched youtube and napped. Often I tend to nap everyday, I’m constantly tired. I wish I wasn’t so tired, I would probably get more out of my day. Oh well.

Things are still kinda rough, though I got an appointment to talk about a thing I wanted for a long time so I’m very excited!!! I’m doing okay, I just have to remind myself that bad things don’t last forever and that good things will be coming.

Creeper, aw man

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General update.

 

Hello all.

Just a general update. Today I came to school late like around 11:00am because I slept in way too much.

I did Japanese class, we made udon noodles and it was super good.

Life at home has been a bit hectic, I’m trying to live life just 1 day a time. I don’t want to overthink about the things going on, I don’t think fueling my anxiety will do me good. But maybe ignoring it completely won’t do me good either. We’ll see. I wish I could live with my uncle, at least for what’s going on but I know that won’t happen. Despite everything, I’m doing alright. I hope this didn’t worry anyone.

Lately I’ve been getting intl Kero Kero Bonito and Mindless Self Indulgence. Very contradicting bands, I know but they’re both super cool. I recommend you check them out, though Mindless Self Indulgence has some slurs and isn’t the most appropriate.

That’s all, bye.

Nobody – Mitski

Hello all. Today I am here to give you the official lyrics to Mitski’s “Nobody”. The lyrics come from the official site on Genius. I adore the popular song, and with this you’ll be able to sing along! Mitski has also noted that you don’t have to match the pitch in the “nobody”ies, since they’re all over the place.

[Verse 1] My God, I’m so lonely
So I open the window
To hear sounds of people
To hear sounds of people
Venus, planet of love
Was destroyed by global warming
Did its people want too much too?
Did its people want too much?

[Pre-Chorus] And I don’t want your pity
I just want somebody near me
Guess I’m a coward
I just want to feel alright
And I know no one will save me
I just need someone to kiss
Give me one good honest kiss
And I’ll be alright

[Chorus] Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Ooh, nobody, nobody, nobody

[Verse 2] I’ve been big and small and
Big and small and
Big and small again
And still nobody wants me
Still nobody wants me

[Pre-Chorus] And I know no one will save me
I’m just asking for a kiss
Give me one good movie kiss

And I’ll be alright

[Chorus] Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Ooh, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody
Nobody, nobody, no

 

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Minecraft :)

Hello all.

In my minecraft server (yes I own a small minecraft server that I paid for) we have advanced to making a house in the nether. It’s pretty nice, and I worked hard on it all by myself (With my friend helping me get the materials for it).It is very exciting to advance to such a stage, and currently I am trying to expand our biome reach by making another portal in the nether. Unfortunately the 1st portal I made went into a place I have already been, so I will have to make another 1 in another place farther away. I just wanted to report the progress in my world, and how it’s interesting. I did not expect the progress to excell within the time frame it did. Yes, minecraft is not a perfect game but it is very important to me and I always have fun with it. Thank you for listening.

Bye bye.β™₯